Sure, I'll Take The Blame
Just lift that bottle to your lips, come on a little more,
You "need" to exercise that elbow … calisthenics, sure.
I'm just your drill instructor, go ahead - another sip,
It's all my fault, I force you to … you have no say in it.
Oops, sorry, that was "last" week, let's correct that shall we now?
I think you blamed your mother or the kids last time somehow;
And where'd you get the booze this time, I thought you poured it out …
The last time you apologized through all the screams and shouts.
You likely have a hidden stash I haven't run across,
I'm sure in time I'll stumble over more that you have lost;
I found a bottle near the tools, another in the john …
How come you didn't mention you discovered they were gone?
Oh by the way, did you forget? (your mem'ries bad, it's true),
You promised to pick up your son from practice after school.
Don't worry, I will do it yet again, I always do …
I'll make a good excuse to why you can't … it's nothing new.
Another thing, I had a call - the principal no less,
It seems our son's been acting out and failing on some tests;
I'll mention it in therapy tomorrow when we're in,
Perhaps he just has A.D.D. and needs some Ritalin.
I know that we had plans tonight, but cancelled them again,
Our friends and family seem so nice, they always understand;
I said that you weren't feeling good, I guess it's sort of true,
At times like this, you're not yourself, but hey … what can you do?
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I've fed the dog, picked up the kids, cut grass and fixed the sink,
I'm really kind of tired now, it's time for bed I think;
I'll see you in the morning dear, don't stay up too late now,
I know that I'll regret it, though I don't know why or how.
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It's two am, you want to what? Just please, I want to sleep,
I have an early morning, and appointments I must keep;
Of course I love you, let it go - just close your eyes and rest,
Oh please don't start this argument again that I detest.
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I'm weary … I don't want to talk, I'm tired of all this stress,
That's why I've left this note for you - the kids and I have "left".
I know you're sorry - heard it all, a million times before,
But when you passed out late last night, I stayed awake till four.
You see, I've done some thinking and I know what I must do,
I don't know why I couldn't see it all this time, it's true;
I closed my eyes, I took the blame for all that you have done,
I felt that I deserved it all ... protected everyone.
But last night was the final straw, you blew it, can't you see?
I'm sure you don't remember all the things you said to me;
I cannot take it anymore, I know I've said that too,
I only have "myself" to blame for coming back to you.
I'm begging you to get some help, but if you don't agree,
It doesn't matter anymore, I've left you … "finally".